The Role of Suppression and the Necessity of It's Absence
The Role of Suppression and the Necessity of It's Absence
I’ve started to understand the mechanics of energy more symbolically, and synergistically, through my growth and I’ve been reflecting on the interconnectedness of events as usual – particularly reflecting on how each piece of the puzzle affects each other. This time I will be reflecting on what type of effects suppression, in particular, may have – what it is and why it occurs.
Suppression is a psychological defense mechanism or cognitive process where a person consciously chooses to push away unwanted thoughts, feelings, or memories from their awareness. It's an intentional act of avoidance or delay—different from repression, which is often more unconscious.
Most people live their lives suppressing unwanted thoughts and phenomena, and each time a person does that, a lot of energy gets wasted. It takes a huge toll on a person to constantly have to push away content since it most often requires a lot of energy.
The best way to deal with phenomena, events, and lingering content is to aim to understand them. If you are able to understand something without being afraid of it, you could metaphorically stand in front of a wild beast, you could grow soft and it could start to growl. When a person suppresses anything, it creates a habit which tends to continue it's course, like everything we repeat habitually. This means that, the longer we have been in a habit of suppressing, the bigger the toll it will take on the soul, will be. So wouldn’t it be way wiser to get into a habit of confronting phenomena when it arises with understanding rather than pushing it away with non-understanding?
Suppression may result in many unwanted phenomena where the suppressed phenomena only grows stronger within, and oh I pray to the Lord when that – whatever it is in a given context – gets unleashed. It may result in a fragmented chaos when it does spring out… That is why it is important to live without secrets, without having to hide anything.
I myself have created a sophisticated framework on how to master your relative reality and live without interference in a world full of acting. It’s called the Process of 5 T’s which consists of Transparency, Tolerance, Trust, Transformation and Transcendence. You shall be able to hear more about this later in more intimate spaces – should you so desire. If you are interested in my deeper teachings, feel free to let me know in email: lilazenith8@gmail.com
The Spiritual Battlefield
As I’ve said, I’ve always had my things going on, and it seems that I have always been able to hold on to the wooden truth-deck floating on the surface of a stormy sea – even if the waves have been highly turbulent in nature. Whether I have been stuck in a terrible ant’s nest, or whatever it is – in these moments, I’ve always known about a better tomorrow. When I was little, and more so on my wayward path, as I’ve mentioned that I’ve suffered from unhealthy company, I would ground myself with the thought of peace and home as I had often felt a golden haloed goodness, particularly when not trying to think of anything special.
Why would you suppress anything? Pain and fear are often the two main reasons. We are wired to avoid pain, and always be safe – just like a snake escaping from the scorching heat of the sun to the shade, or a person cutting off another person in a store line, because they are afraid of being late from a business meeting. Indeed, why would you suppress anything?
Well, there are reasons for it, and like I’ve often said, most phenomena do not occur without a reason – there are reasons for everything always, but we might not understand these reasons at the moment. I have often later received perfect understanding of what has occurred when having surrendered the incident to the hands of the one who knows (God)
There Are Reasons For Everything
If you’d be a child of a parent who does not accept you as you are, then it would make sense to suppress parts of who you are. You showing up as yourself could result in something dangerous then.
Let’s say you were in a job that restricted your being somehow while appealing to firing you if you didn’t ‘play by the book’, of course you would be more careful and obey the boss.
If you had 'prohibited' thoughts in a context that doesn't allow it, such as erotic thoughts in the church, then again it would make sense to hide them. But is it indeed wise to live in this way? I personally don’t think so, not even in temple-spirit! Life is sacred and a great opportunity to rise higher on the ladder of personal soul-growth. All energy must be used for this purpose, suppression is simply not the way, since it often thrives on non-understanding fueled by fear. Sometimes, however, this fear is a really, really good thing. There are many books out there which highlight alignment in basic life-protection.
Take a moment to imagine how much attention your daily life demands with all of its little details, tasks and trials. That alone is quite demanding – now how demanding is having to suppress something on top of all that – quite demanding!
It is ultimately wisest to focus entirely on the matter at hand, whatever it may be, and if you have to suppress anything on top of that, it will make your task more difficult.
I remember when I would initially learn to play guitar, it felt as if I was focusing on it while pushing something aside, which in this case was general intensity arising from the seeming massivity of the task in the beginning. But the truth remains that, if we merely understood a phenomena fully, we could give up suppression. Had I been calm in the beginning and done things right on the first round, I would not have had this initial difficulty in learning.
I guess there are reasons for everything.
Everything requires energy to work. When I’m writing this now, where is this energy coming from? When I speak, where do I get energy from? How is it that I am able to protect myself instinctively without thinking, if and whenever I’ve been in danger? Where do I get my ideas? How did you pass the test you thought you had already failed at? How?
When Suppression Serves Us
I was recently taking a walk, in auspicious summer mood, feeling the joyful breeze on my skin when I was stopped by a senior lady who seem to be inviting me into conversation with her – I enjoy speaking with persons when ever I bump into ones like this, allowing them to share what’s on their mind and heart. This often occurs, I guess I am easy to approach – that is what she told me. I love seniors! Anyways, I had a rich and meaningful conversation with this lady. We talked about various things, but on the top seemed to be spirituality, since this person seemed to have questions to which I could respond to, but I have to tell you, the most important is compassionate listening if you want to know how to help a person. She mentioned that she had had many mystical experiences during her life and we both agreed that, yes, those exist. To me, all this is perfectly true, and I’d encourage you to always hold that as a possibility, too.
Some teachers have often expressed their personal views about beliefs and knowing, emphasizing that knowing should be foremost, but I think that believing is also a huge part of the spiritual birthday cake. That is because, sometimes knowing can make you feel superior – and arrogance tends to backlash. I myself have learned from this, and I am very humble. I have often come off to people as intense, and they have expressed the need to correct me, to make me grow in humility. I truly feel that we are sometimes supposed to be quite intense, since if we reflect on the nature of cause and effect and how proper cultivation can only grow in number of repetitions often resulting in complete mastery of calmness and divine fire – I see it can only be beneficial. But it belongs to a specific context.
Anyways, getting back to the original discussion – O my wayward story-teller heart! This person revealed to me something about their past as well – she mentioned how her child had died when she was very little. After that she had gotten pregnant again and chose to suppress the grief over her previous child to keep the newborn undamaged of the grief introject, sometimes passing from a parent to a child. This is what she said, and she also said that she had done it consciously. It made me see more about this given subject, just before I had received guidance to write about it – and led me to an important question: when can suppression serve us? I know it has served me, unknowingly, many times. I mean, I had to hide some sacred aspects of myself when I was younger, and when I would later express it and show people who I truly was – they found it hard to believe. That is why I often value solitude.
Psychological Soul Science
In IFS-therapy there is a concept of parts, protectors, firefighters and exiles, and the idea is that there is a pure Self, which is the conscious person held together by their divine parts serving some type of purpose for that particular individual expression. And when these parts have lost their valuable roles, and turned into something else, they may get perverted and develop attitudes, habits and so on – often contrary to their original purpose. Protectors are protective agendas in the psyche aiming to guard our parts whenever needed, whether they are healthy, moderately healthy or unhealthy. Protectors are more fixed and rigid patterns compared to firefighters, which serve as mere temporary means to escape, numb or silence the pain of hurting parts. Then there are healthy parts as well, as mentioned before, which even beneath the noise and shatter, always stay intact.
So if we look at her case through the lens of IFS, we can conclude that what she engaged in was obvious protector activity, and in this case was something that could have not been prevented and probably served some purpose. Parents sometimes even take bullets for their children in countries where violence predominates, or generally, are willing to sacrifice everything. This is relatable, and truly Christ-like. But also, it is wise to remember to look at archetypes connected to Christ-hood really carefully, inspecting it through a lens of careful observation and religious study. The events of Jesus’ life have also been severely misinterpreted, idolized and fantasized about, and this can result in a person's assimilating this type of ‘sacrifice sufferer’ mentality, where they may forget about placing their well being first for once. Although service, kindness, love, equality and so on are truly virtuous and required: if you were in a crashing airplane, wouldn’t it be wiser to put on your own oxygen mask first, and then help others put on theirs? Exactly.
From Self-sacrifice to Self-care
I used to be a helper, and I still definetly am, but in more mature way – always helping, often placing others’ well being foremost. Why? Because I was spiritually conditioned to do that, and what exactly held me captive? The belief that I will not be a good helper if I don’t help everybody. Where I live, these things tend to spread – and not always are the mechanics of light-work properly understood. Even lately I’ve had the calling to focus on meditation, and deepening my own knowledge and enhancing my well-being and my intent has been wrongly interpreted as selfish dominion over others. I have gained some recognition here in Finland, and while my intentions have indeed been good, they may not have always been received with an open heart and gestures. Although, I don’t owe anyone an explanation – none of what has happened and has been Divine has been much planned at all.
I can say: I die daily. What does this mean? It means that I go through a daily dying process, which refers to inner purification through deep meditation and its rejuvenating effect when combined with breathing-exercises called pranayamas, such as the Kriya Yoga techniques.
This saying is originally a biblical saying of the apostle Paul, and it is certainly a spell that needs to be broken. Paul has been associated with philosophies that can be misleading, such as the blood atonement doctrine. Such ideas may resonate with some believers, but even the story of Jesus is ultimately symbolic. It highlights a real, lived experience that provides the ultimate proof of divinity beyond measures, such as was the highly demanding task of Jesus – meant to show humans not be afraid of transitoriness.
This story was what that current age really needed – a symbolic proof and sacrifice ready to serve as an example. But there needs to be carefulness around this subject, since even the sweetest nectar may turn into poison in the ‘wrong hands’. This doctrine, if falsely interpreted, may become destructive, and may enable an individual to assimilate a ‘suffering lamb mentality’. This can turn unhealthy.
Jesus died on the cross and gave a spiritual legacy to mankind, but what if the old archetypal approach isn’t working anymore but instead, sometimes fueling destructive mentalities? God gave us Life so that we may live in prosperity, wellness and love. I believe this age needs not another archetypal suffering story. This age calls for individual awakening which will spread and enable the multitudes to awaken by forceful, holy pressure that will inevitably fill their presence with Divine Love and the resulting abandonment of hate. This age calls for sacred autonomy, since the true helpers are a few and the lines are long. If these lines become any longer – soon there will be a flood. That is why, sometimes, divine messengers show up and disappear right after revealing the deeper meaning behind their visit. Many Light-workers encourage persons to activate their own inner truth-compass, and to abandon the aid-wheels once they learn to ride the bike. By doing so, somebody else in need may take advantage of these aid-wheels – once you stop needing them.
Breaking The Spell
The spell I will now break is the spell of death. I know many person’s associate spiritual awakening with a kind of death, and they should be really careful with such thinking – since we don’t always know what a person is referring to, and a single word has entirely different associations in different mind-computers of others. And as we are truly part of a one unified energy field, ideas and thoughts intermingle across different mind-antennas, depending on how tuned or not tuned these antennas are to their source. But remember, the highly attuned antenna affects other antennas the most – this is why gurus should be gurus.
Let’s abandon death and decay while we are living. I mean, can’t you see, the dying are born and the living are dying… I say there is no heart in it at all! Most important is to awaken – should you feel called. Only if.
Mass vibrations manifest intense energies and structures, and those that thrive on death, even if merely in thought or devotion manifest death inevitably. This is the case in many cult-like dynamics and it is truly terrifying to witness. The archetypal suffering story of Jesus is symbolic, but should never be replicated obsessively. This is where spiritual danger sets in the picture. Energy is real, and can be manipulated through various methods such as magic, mental projection and energy work. Ideas, even if correct, simply in the wrong hands may backlash. I have a capability to see how events tie together, sometimes operating in a net-like multi-reinforcement fashion, and this is why nothing is more dangerous than a proper idea in improper hands. This is why it’s important to always take things calmly and responsibly, and to advance progressively without causing inmoderate group hysteria in a given context.
Let’s say a person knew God-consciousness and could give God also to others. What do you think would happen if they revealed it all at once in a sometimes spiritually backwards-advancing culture and population? A one where God, if having come in flesh, would be put in a cage and persecuted? I’ve elaborated earlier on always respecting others’ values, beliefs and practices, so what, when most people are practicing forms of, let’s say religion that can’t on this age reflect the full spectrum of the given phenomena called God (like any system can’t fully contain the Almighty)? The Lord originally thought tools like spiritual practices as a means to re-establish the never-lost resting place in Him, but once having produced fruit was man (individualized divine consciousness) instructed to drop the fruit-wishing and was also encouraged to pick up the fruit and consume it without greed. Without taking down the whole tree!
Wisdom in Thinking
When we engage in spiritual practices, these methods do work and increase our responsibility in thinking, acting and behaving. Why does this occur? Well, there is no logical explanation to this, like there isn’t a logical explanation to many other mysteries of Life. Mysteries can not be satisfied on the level thereof which denies anything taking place outside the realm of understanding.
I just want to highlight the necessity of right thinking once established in a high place, since at this point we are directing thought rays directly with real consequences and backlashes in the spiritual world.
This spiritual world is very different from the physical plane that has been found to be operating even after upholding masters have seemingly left it. What some refer to as death is the death of the spirit, not flesh. And please know that if you have seen me get serious, or withdrawn all of a sudden, we are dealing with an inner landscape which I am monitoring. We are divine persons ever existent in our archetypal positions, and your true birthday is the day when you figure out who you are. And the day of death would be the day when we stop existing as ourselves, perhaps assimilating a certain destructive mentality as opposed to our soul nature. So, if I have ever caused you to shit your pants with my fanaticism, I want to comfort you and tell you that the levels I’m surfing at are really sensitive and careful, and I have never intended to freak you out. Sometimes I simply feel like I need to do something and then I do that – but this is not about romanticizing any type of obsession-ideal like in the TV-series ‘Monk’, if you have ever watched that.
And if we are on a spiritual path, why associate death to it? Many persons do not always know what is being referred to when there is death-talk around spirituality. And while it always should point to a deeper dynamic of soul-freedom, sometimes it may get associated with the wrong type of ideas. Remember what I said about how sacred archetypal-phenomena must always stay in alignment with the original meaning that is being represented?
Allowance In Living and Permission in Acting
If you are depressed, allow yourself to be depressed. Although God can fix everything, what does this even mean? Does it mean that God comes from the ceiling and fixes you exactly in the way that feels good to you? I don’t believe in this. How God heals depression happens through a person’s own intelligent application of common sense, or should I say application of the heart? God comes to man in a form of allowing and permission, never in the form of going overboard or losing the grip on life. So whatever there is can be allowed to be. In this way, anything can find peace, even a deadly criminal – or perhaps a part within oneself that closely represents a criminal of the inner landscape. Even if you’d think that somebody is an actor, or a liar, if you let them be that, in time truth would scorch out the falsity and the outcome would be positive anyway, whereas suppression always leads to eventual issues.
This happens because suppression stores phenomena energetically with the exact corresponding energy and force that was suppressed, and in time it only grows – waiting for an explosion but rather hopefully, a release. But what can we do, if this release is intense… Where can it be released? Well, to this I do not have a direct answer to. But all I can say is that it is way wiser to handle phenomena when it arises – in this way it does not get stored within to be strengthened in a course of time, resulting in a backlash.
Suppression can result in repressed energy. What does repression mean? Herein lies a word play: to re-press. It indicates pressing down something and what harm may this cause? Well, we have different dynamics at play in this cosmic experience. Pressing is closely related to assertiveness, and to assert means to insert and this always requires a receptive counterpart – a field being inserted to. So whatever one asserts it shall be received and sent forth – hopefully not trapped.
The dynamics at play in ordinary life such as beings having intercourse, or the simple act of a waitress serving a receiving, hopefully happy client – all these, manifest cosmically and archetypally, too, and there is no ceiling to this. So, the higher one's spiritual altitude is, the deeper the symbology behind it will be. Solar-Lunar dynamics, for example, should not be merely reduced on the level thereof of a double-sided human mind often looking at things from a biological perspective. At a certain point themes like the Solar-Lunar influences become a kind of discussion between gods in the heavens, and it becomes quite serious, and not some type of play, especially within spiritual frameworks. That is why I’ve outgrown a lot of vagueness lately and think it’s important to pick something and stick with it. I have chosen my truth, which is tied to the grander truth – you should always find yours. This is field congruence.
There are three paths:
The Sovereign Path (one where solar-and-lunar influenced leadership is unified)
The Queen Path (mainly lunar influence)
The King Path (mainly solar influence)
A person should always first and foremost know themselves, and their context and to see what is the right approach for them, always going with the most soul-satisfying option. Then when this is discovered, one should not act against their faith, even if nameless, like mine! Pardon the vagueness, I just don't have to reveal too much about myself here.
The guna theory of Yoga suggests that where one guna is present – so are the rest – and there are three – sattva, rajas, and tamas. That said, a king is partly a queen and so is queen partly a king and the sovereign is both of these combined.
Binary splits sometimes reflect old-fashioned genderization which may or may not be limiting, depending on the context. Why does it depend on the context? Well, let’s say that one is part of a dynamic which thrives on these, it is important that such a one honors that context. Certain religious injunctions thrive on these mechanics, and if you are going to attend, it is important to honor traditions. But most important is not to access rooms where your tradition or faith is not honored – and at worst, mocked!
The solution, again, is field congruence. I’ve talked about it before, but what does it mean again? It means placing the hand in a place of a hand, eye in the place of an eye, and feet in a place of feet. It means placing you in your natural habitat – karmically assigned – you fit there, and nowhere else. This is why there are different lineages, practices and traditions, and while there is nothing inherently wrong with them, they may conflict together when the energetic fields get mixed.
There are devotees, let’s say who need to be with a certain teacher, and not with another. What happens when you poke a bees-hive? The queen gets agitated and so does the rest of the bees, who only wish to serve their queen... And whatever such a bee does is only for the purpose of serving their master. So – can anyone, after all, be blamed for only following their calling which symbolizes the highest to them, while something on the contrary would symbolize loss of purpose and meaning? And, we are all here creating purpose and meaning anyways.
I truly want to apologize for any mismatch that may have occurred in the past due to my feather-mindedness.
O Lord, help my wayward heart – indeed a great infidelity of mine… The Devotional writer sets in – I shall let thee utter now – should thou words indeed be like nectar to us, your Divine children.
A Word On Powers and Archetypes
If we were to highlight the Solar-Lunar dynamic again and to look at it symbolically, and spiritually – it does point to a certain important dynamic at play. All phenomena manifest in decreasing manner and also increasing manner, and there is always the personal inner landscape and the multiplicity of the world where the common mechanics of consciousness manifest interpersonally as well. There are solar and lunar influences at play within each individualized creature, whether stationary or moveable in nature. This is why we can’t ultimately split in absolute terms, since where there is a quality of a multi folded dynamic at play, it always involves complimenting counterparts. And this manifests within individual creatures, and reflects outward in interpersonal dealings as well. Everything is the same – just on different levels.
Problems arise when parts of a dynamic become unbalanced, such as an unbalanced solar-lunar dynamic, where the luminous moon receives a beam of a corrupted solar fire and manifests a thread of dust. Or when the meant-to-receive counterpart wants to give too much, causing it to turn oppositional to its nature.
I look at this from a quite high angle – I know this may sound sexual – and while there isn’t anything wrong with that – this is coming from a spiritual viewpoint. If we learn to apply these functions correctly as designed for us, we can manifest miracles. We can get to the Zenith of the Play.
The idea is that the solar-force is the potential-power and the lunar-field is the condensator-field through which great things can be manifested by condensing this power through a fertile soil of the lunar-energy. This dynamic is highly valuable, but it is first and foremost a soul science, and a person should always find their spot in this play. I can tell you that I have a lot of solar, but also a lot of lunar. I’ve created within me an opposite complimenting groove, while I personally identify with the lunar in identity. I also like to stay awake at night and sometimes sleep a couple of hours during the daytime – while I don't recommend this for everybody – it sometimes works for me. Even these writings come through me without much intellectual planning. Many types of energies have shown up, like you’ve seen and I just aim to be a channel for this knowledge that comes. This is why I don’t even understand this whole 'enlightenment thing' anymore... If we’ve seen what that field can be archetypally in a shadow sense, I must ask: who the hell even wants to ‘get enlightened’ ? What are you getting, and where are you going to put it? Backpack? Or pockets? Or the marketplace? Me saying this does not deny the actual enlightenment.
At worst such a one may start to replicate a once-was fantasy while neglecting the actual work that would liberate their spirit. It does often come through work, not otherwise.
You’ve seen me articulate profound concepts and philosophies. Why do you think I’m doing all this? Well, I don’t like things not articulated that could be articulated. And sometimes, there aren’t many who can put ethereal sciences into words, so the person who can must do it. Why is this necessary? I just feel like it is. And why wouldn’t I trust my intuition?
Symbolic language is real, especially at shamanistic levels among certain beliefs. There are some highly insidious archetypes which you do not want to become. I myself have often come across oddly wrong – perhaps it has to do more with the very individuals who have temporarily grasped me wrong or not grasped at all! My intent is not to blame, but what I can say now is this: you do not want to become labelled as the archetype everybody wants to take out! I myself am considered a strange creature among the flock, and I am indeed quite multifaceted. I have developed myself in a way that often seems hard to put in a box, but I do know how to fit into one – like I said, it is important to know your place. Anyways, that is why I am expressing myself here – maybe you readers see me – but I do not demand anything of you. You may as well commune with a different concept of me – but that can be deceptive, and I myself prefer to keep meeting of the spirits untouched by deceptivity.
Such a dangerous philosophy can lead to someone being labelled as ‘the serpent’ within a community, and I can tell you, everybody wants to rock them down! When I lived in Tanzania at 10-years old, one day, the local kids had executed a king cobra on the land next to our chicken-coop fenced yard of our family house in Iringa, Tanzania. I’ve also experienced this symbolically, although I’ve never been a cobra-snake – but indeed, maybe more like a snake tamer. Anyways, my experience led me to utter these words: this is enough. This is what I meant when I said: ideas, even if correct or incorrect – in the wrong hands – may backlash. This is why I have been elaborating on complex social dynamics, this is why I know about such things as collective rage, universal scapegoat-hood and so on. I had to find out, because at a certain point, it felt as if the tides had turned against me, but an end has been put to that situation – and it is not the end at all – this is the beginning.
This marks the 12th writing in a beautifully unfolding series called the Gospel of Lila – given freely to the public due to a mysterious impulse that arose within me – this is what I can tell you. May this encounter serve some type of purpose in your Life.
Let’s see what Life brings next,
In full receptivity of the unfolding mystery – may yours be blessed,
LILA
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