Lila in the Matrix and the Divine Memory

Lila in the Matrix and the Divine Memory

A Note to the Reader:

This piece is a sacred offering. It’s freely given, but it is not casual.

If you lose yourself in the act of ecstatic reading and make it to the end, it was written for you.

We’re building something sacredly devotional, real, and sovereign here. 

This isn’t content — it’s communion.

The content within our present moment is a culmination of the past — what will happen in the future is shaped now — and what happens in the near future will shape our grander future by multiplying the recent past. This process is like a one way tightening knot, depending on which direction we want to go — in fact, one way loosening knot is way better — since, it frees. You truly don’t want to be locked. Everything the mind gets exposed to shapes it and these shapes tend to try to find some sort of outcome. It depends on how free the soul is in its Source and how much these modifications stick around and how insidious these impulses are. Some souls are entirely liberated and are doing a Lila in Creation without being bound amidst objects traditionally understood as binding. Who gets bound and how?

Yoga has a framework which tells us that mental modifications that blur, modify and shape our pure awareness are fivefold. This framework consists of valid knowledge, memory, illusion, delusion and sleep. 

This time, I will discuss two of them as they are tied to todays topic. As I’m a Truth Seeker, I’ve chosen not to elaborate on the remaining three qualities: illusions, delusions and sleep as my intent is to focus on what’s real from an ultimate Truth-seekers perspective.

Note: Sleep, in the context of Yoga is considered a modification of cognition—thus yogis' 'sleep awake', and rejuvenate their bodies through energy alignment rather than unconscious slumber. What's the time of non-wakefulness for many is time of wakefulness for the mystics. Sleep in this context refers to unconscious slumber, not the necessary breaks between days allowing rest and refreshment.

Very well, how much better it is to know than to merely seek. There will come a time when one can stop being ‘just a seeker’. To seek is to desire a solution and to desire a solution implies a problem. And to see something as a problem instead of as a curious learning opportunity implies a mindset that reduces things on the level of problems. And sometimes, just sometimes, these very 'problems' propel us to grow.

Correct knowledge — aka when valid knowledge is acquired through a valid source, such as a trustworthy teacher, book or lecture. Such knowledge is valid and should be trusted on a mental level, then transmuted into superconscious conditioning in the soul. But the intellectual process still happens within the intellect, which, from a perspective of Yoga, is a modification of Pure Consciousness happening ‘outside’ of the pure Self, who abides in its own nature as itself. 

Even if you are the most spiritual person, read scriptures everyday and say very holy things, this can become a type of duality. In fact, many organizations have turned into dualities, and some gurus into a monotonic tech-engineering life. The Divine can’t be contained fully, and consciously within a bulk average of this era. It’s impossible. But paradoxically, it is in everything. There’s a holy line between ‘being a spiritual person’, and actually being one — and such ones often fail to notice it themselves, because they are absorbed in It. Gods prototypes can’t be produced in bulk, nor is there a ‘one-size-fits-all’ approach with the Spiritual Path that could be applied to the masses all at once — a mass constructed from tiny, and complex individuals, who ultimately, all, require a personal touch from their Creator who alone knows them. If a person studies with the unfitting person, for them, who doesn’t know their heart — the consequences can be punishment-like.

There are intellectual scholars, highly intelligent people, and even people who know how to build rocket ships, and bombs that kill thousands of innocent people — but many of these people do not know what lies beyond and beneath their own thoughts. If they did, they wouldn’t need to misuse the creative possibilities in the Universe, nor to find a location from space in which to take but temporary root in. They would dwell within the Heart.

Shiny, overly intellectualized, outward play that projects intelligence, performance and worldly success resembles a higher form of ego-consciousness, but these things, in time, tend to bind if one is not discerning.

However, a jivanmukta (awakened soul liberating while living) lives in the highest way, what might even seem like a display to some. But inwardly they are free. As they delve deeper, their avatar grows. The process of acquiring valid knowledge does not bind them, like it can bind the ordinary individual. Let alone the ‘intellectual scholar’. Or a one who tries to find a mathematical explanation to why they exist. Accept this: God. 

Memory (smriti) — Memories are impressions of past experiences stored in the subconscious mind, which may arise as vivid, visceral, or faint recollections without the actual presence of the original stimuli. However, sometimes, all it takes is a memory of an event to bring it back, so in a way, the actual presence of the memory may feel vivid and real. ‘Glitches’ can happen, where a surfacing memory doesn’t only feel like the past — it feels like reality, like reliving it instead of remembering it. But it’s a memory. This can be particularly true when dealing with traumatizing events. In these moments, when a memory surfaces, affirm that it’s a memory and then be mindful of it. Finding a few things from the environment you are in and naming them is good practice. This mindfulness-process is a way of thinking that will ultimately undo the thinking that might be binding you. 

Memory is important and truly needed. We must remember everything in detail to live excellently. We have to be able to remember what has happened in our lives — especially, if we ever have to rewrite our story, or speak about ourselves with authority to defend our truth as a person. My definition for 'Person' refers to the reflected consciousness made in the 'Likeness of God'. Be that Person. You must be that one—this is really important.

In time, memory becomes superconscious conditioning, which happens without thinking. What type of a world are we creating here? A one where everyone isn't included as they are? I have a radically different point of view!

Yoga is emphasizing us to notice how memory sometimes operates in erratic spirit, and is simply stating: the first cause, the enabling factor of Life is beyond memory — or alternatively, before memory.

Cosmic delusion, in a negative sense, replays events from memory, that’s why history repeats itself. This is the matrix, it is made of akashic memory. That’s why a contradiction-free individual does not let themselves be overly concerned by ordinary memories while creating new, positive memory grooves, all while remembering their Original Design. We ought not to forget to nurture our memory. If a person has had many adverse experiences in life, these get stored in memory and it is through new memories that the old ones can be replaced.

Sometimes people can’t remember because they have so much they want to forget. They have been so gaslit by the enemy’s voice to forget their Divine Birthright — accessed through the Divine Smriti. In the case of such ones, keep remembering who you are. Try, try, and try! But don't try too much — your tries are only cries, and when those are heard, a release happens. Would you like to be released? 

It is truly essential to understand what these fivefold modifications truly point out to — a relative reality. It says: these qualities rule the sensory kingdom, these qualities overshadow the pure Spirit within. Yoga never said a person must rid themselves of studying accurately, memory, and sleep (rejuvenating rest). It encouraged us to banish illusions and delusions with the Sword of Wisdom. But then, this is not aggression, but rather understanding what happens while, sometimes, the very ‘unwanted’ phenomena may still linger on some level.

Note: the ideas of illusion and delusion can be weaponized in the case of people who do not really understand you, who can’t yet see you, and thus claim that your ways are delusional or illusory. This can cause serious mental issues. My latest writing on ‘archetypal attribution’ discusses this. Radical reasoning, that rules in certain sects of spiritual practitioners tends to see phenomena that I see, personally, as magical as delusion or illusion. Or even better — as 'lunatic'! Lunatic is another funny archetype, it actually means 'luminous'—perhaps that's why it is villainized.

Frameworks such as the samkhya philosophy and the guna-model, etc., serve as foundational support, but these things can turn into obsessions as well. They're to be transcended after understanding the mechanic.

Some saints does not differentiate between intermediates of Consciousness at all—seeing all as Divine. Usually such saints are made in circumstances where there was an Urgent Need and no time to think, because everything that is Great, usually happens faster than thinking, and the alert person gets picked. You don't think, you don't always plan everything—it just happens.

But still, I’m not claiming that illusions and delusions do not exist. However, these phenomena are often tied to interpersonal abuse or trauma. Also, there are persons who could even make you experience something delusional out of the blue. These are spirits of entropy masquerading as 'magicians'. But this isn't common with ordinary folks — and usually, happens to no ordinary folks.

Over-activation of the sympathetic nervous system can also end up in rejecting the magic which can be only received anew since it hijacks the receiving nature of the parasympathetic nervous system, activated through breathing exercises such as Kriya Yoga-techniques.

I, personally, rarely teach these techniques, but I am a deeply devoted yogic-northern-indigenous mixture from past lives, what some would call a Natural Mystic. Salutations to your sva-dharma, too, O Precious Reader!

Kriya Yoga refers to the original Kriya Yoga of Mahavatar Babaji—nowadays many things are called kriya's since 'kriya' merely refers to action. But this is not always the same as the original Kriya Yoga that is being referred to now.

Here's what I wrote in my latest article about Archetypal Attribution:

‘It is the mystery, and magic — at least to me — which is religion-like. If something happens only once the way it does, and often you are the only one to witness it, isn’t that really special? Isn’t that Godly — otherworldly? Or, Super-natural, instead of suffering?

In fact, it’s through the Divine Smriti that the Supreme can be delved into. For a soul, which is always united to its maker, naturally has a Divine Smriti. This is superconscious — above ordinary consciousness. This is the first knowledge of the individualized Divine Consciousness and thus every soul remembers it. This individual, when created, is given free choice, too. To exercise their memory, intellect and skills. When too many adverse memories override this Divine Smriti, they can shadow it on a surface level. Such a person needs an Urgent Reminder from Life to consciously regain the Divine Smriti. I’ve surely received mine, and I’m still alive. Alas! Now I can't forget. I thank the Sovereign of the Egypt.

If I now saw an unknown insect crawling on my table, and extended my finger to have it stung by it, I would’ve developed a memory that I didn’t previously have. Before I had tried it myself, I didn’t know, I didn’t have a memory based on personal exploration, that this insect tends to bite. If I knew, if I had a memory of it as an insect that bites, I wouldn’t have tried my luck. It was after I experienced it that I knew it. So memories tend to work as protective agendas too. But since the matrix people live in, constructed from what has happened before, shaping what ought to happen, is built from complex cosmic memory, it is highly complex and archetypal.

It is after the individualized soul has been created that the Divine Smriti always stays with it on some level. It depends on how many lower smritis override this original one. In fact there are spiritually enlightened people who have never consciously meditated, or even read the Bhagavad Gita or the Bible, or any other spiritual texts.

Now that the mechanic of the smriti is understood, let’s consider how we want to use it. 

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Time is Limited

If a person lives up to 80 years old it means there are 29,000 days in their life. Below is the worst case scenario I call the time-waste protocol:

8 hours daily in a job they dislike (this doesn't apply if one does what they enjoys. See time waste protocol)

2 hours in idle, often unconscious conversations

2 hours in passive entertainment or scrolling

2 hours in draining relationships and conversations

2 hours in commuting, errands, or distractions

1.5 hours dealing with Life’s spontaneity and unpredictability

That’s 16h already gone, and the rest of the day, the batteries are dead. It means no energy for prayer, contemplation, and studying the books unwritten. What gets left is 6.5 hours and this alone is already too short a time for sleep for most people.

That’s 16h of worldly smriti’s daily multiplied by a count of 22.600, a roughly estimated count of a person's allotted days in the world as an official ‘society member’ if an estimate of 80 years lifespan is applied, minus the 18 years of infancy, childhood, and adolescence – after which the ‘real deal’ begins. 

Take this seriously — if you feel called — consider your spiritual future. This time is the time to get it right.

Then, imagine if these almost 30,000 days which an average, healthy person usually has, were used in creating higher grooves? Such as meditation on the Divine, the resulting good thoughts, absence of enslavement, creativity, acquiring meaningful, artistic skills which enable creative expression often directly linked to Divinity? All this would be great, instead of mind darkening cultivation which will just take another sorrowful form after death and continue. You see, as we have the Divine Smriti always, we need to override ‘bad smritis’ with good ones if those block the way. Another way is simply banishing them from the mind altogether. And if the only thing we have is what is, then we shouldn’t try to acquire a whole lot of new content. But then, such a person is usually not bound by the process of degrading karmic memory, and they could do anything they want. 

We do have a choice in how we want to spend our time, but sometimes we have been given many trials and tests that tend to make the managing of our time more difficult. Some people don't make it very far, and it is very, very sad... What such ones can do, for example if they know their days to be numbered, is to create as much good, liberating grooves as possible during their days in the Game. At the time of death, such a person should think about the Highest Objective for them. In this way they can use the mechanics of smriti, reincarnation and relative soul-laws for their own soul-advantage. Then, as the future can’t be saved in the body, at least it can be fortified in the upcoming.

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How to Do a Lila

I’m essentially preaching about how to exist in the highest way. I think it’s a skill to notice that one is in form now and also using that body for something meaningful and cosmically entertaining as it lasts. Leaving it to sit may bring mold. This is why many authentic spiritual practices emphasize intelligent and effective acting in the form. I, too, would plan for sitting the rest of my time at some point. But I can write. I can laugh. I can play Music. And also sit in meditation, of course. I can do my best now and see the outcome.

If all you can do is hammer nails on a board, hammer as many nails as you can. 

My name is Līlā Zenith — the meaning of the name is highly sophisticated. I didn’t invent this name, I got it. Līlā refers to the playful nature of the Infinite playing through us as us. I’m a musician too. A necessary move, for me, in this at times grief-stricken world. It’s when I started to see Life as play, many things started to unfold. The reason why people suffer, sometimes, is that they are so very serious. Or, I’m not here to tell you why you suffer if you do. Maybe you know the reason. But I truly see Līlā-consciousness as a necessary move in the world. The Divine Soul within you is not off this world, it is not of Nature (form). It is of Pure Consciousness. But it embodies a form which needs to be spiritualized and aligned for enabling the Soul (you) to stay awake in form. These instructions are meant for the serious Spiritual Seeker living in the dark age of post Kali Yuga. We should be thankful for everything, since even a physical incarnation is an opportunity of Divine Stabilization which leads to eventual superconscious smriti of success, just like there is a smriti of failure in the case of the person who continuously experiences fallouts, life after life.

It would be really nice to pet everybody (this is not irony) if they fail somehow or fall, and tell them that everything will be alright, and that some day the desired outcome falls from heaven, but universal laws are inescapable. Sometimes it does drop from heaven, but then there has, in most cases, been prior effort – or then, a lot of God's Grace – like a lot. When you can no longer bear not having something, you’ll go after it.

And when you understand that you:

1. Either die (methaphorically, symbolically, or in reality)

2. Or go get it,

The outcome becomes certain.

I used to struggle with things that I’m proficient in now — it was as if I couldn’t get started very fast. But as I tried and tried, it strengthened my positive smriti-grooves. Now I could do these things even while blindfolded, even after drinking myself drunk (this is what I never do, but I feel like I could). In fact, I’ve made such strong grooves within me that sometimes I feel like I could actually do anything and not forget it. I didn’t forget it during my biggest initiation through very intense spiritual suffering... This is why, lately, I’ve been living more freely, although it has made me very, very judged by people–sometimes even attacked… I'm not joking. I'm not blaming either–I actually want to help. If you want...

The person whose consciousness is easily swayed and colored by new memories and the resulting conditioning, should be really careful of the content. This is not a joke! I did spend a long time training myself, and am still training.

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Spend Your Time Well

Many of us have been spiritually conditioned to give second chances, to forgive and to be nice. But what can happen to an overly nice person in this ignorant world?

They become a doormat. A nice doormat! 

To forgive is to for-give. To give forward. Where is it given? To the Silence Beneath and the Word of God. When you for-give, you don't have to worry at all.

To forgive does not mean to give fresh opportunities to persons that oppose your calling, knowingly or unknowingly, to be stabbed in the back (treated without respect) and continue eventually as a wounded one. How many wounds can one actually bare... There's a very holy limit.

To forgive is to pick your battles and to know that you are being fought for in Silence all the time.

Many Saints, such as Teresa of Avila, have expressed grief over interpersonal relationships they have partaken in, mainly for the distraction they brought. By the way, when I wrote this text I had read 20 pages of the book—this is the truth. And no other works have I studied in written form.

This is not to deny the necessity of wholesome relationships—it points to soul-purpose fragmenting influences—by trusting your instincts you can find out what is healthy for you.

There is also a certain tone in writings that were made by persons, especially feminine souls during the dark ages — which can show up as ‘self-lessening’ talk or externalization of power — or overt maternalization of Divinity etc. However, it can also be very devotional. My intention in saying this is actually very, very positive. It's rather Self-reflective than personalized.

A single conversation might change you for the better or worse, and can open a psychic connection. And sometimes, some things tend to never leave you alone. But of course, you shouldn't think that this is the case. This is why, it doesn’t matter how much it hurts to turn opportunities, or people down if it is an act of Self-honoring. The 'withdrawn' and careful 'religious' person might actually be on to something and they don’t want to miss the opportunity. Doing that would be the most terrible thing ever — indeed, a Divine Tragedy! Although my name is Līlā, this matter is not a play or a joke. It’s serious business and all who know, know. Those who don’t know — keep reading.

I myself have suffered from unhealthy company, too. In the past I was still too naive, too easy to convince, too easy to try to derail. Very well, I haven’t derailed. Alas! What satisfaction denied from the clown — and what victory granted. This is because I have always ‘believed’ in a Higher Reality and that It is beyond our concerns. Now how much better is it to know than to merely believe. As I understood more deeply that the Supreme Life dwells within me, and around me as everything, I noticed a need to limit access and exposure to certain influences, no matter how much I knew that there's a God within them too. No matter how much that idea was appealed to in order to justify keeping me hooked. Whereas before I aimed to attune my Innate Goodness with theirs, my main intent now is to stay attuned to my own, since I have understood that not everybody is attuned to their inner essence, which only is good. If one does not live from that place of Innate Goodness, they will be subjected to the laws of relative maya — a resisting component given for the Clear Soul to grow stronger in Truth. This resisting component can masquerade as many tests in the case of the almost free person amidst their final battles.

To do a Lila is to live as a sovereign being in the matrix of maya. Lila does not refer to maya — Lila is integrated existence, the creative alignment of a soul with its own movement and spark. Lila is dynamic Consciousness before the smoke screen of maya takes root.

All encounters, conversations and content we take through the senses as energy modifies our minds, causing irritation in the resulting law of cause and effect. As you are of Divine origin, a Child of the Highest, consider deeply what you want to expose yourself to. 

It might look like:

Setting boundaries to a friend who always wants to talk to you about things that does not interest you, even worse, it bothers and harasses you.

Saying ‘no thanks’ to the stand-seller on the street after a busy day full of content already.

Avoid letting somebody with destructive, manipulative energy into your field.

Being discerning when offered a shiny, outwardly impressive opportunity. (I have been offered many—this is not personal)

Addition: A common persuasion technique involves forcing a rapid decision between two extreme options, often under time pressure. This creates cognitive stress and can trigger the sympathetic nervous system, part of the body's fight-or-flight response. The resulting activation — including symptoms like hypervigilance, confusion, or nervous tension — can disrupt clear reasoning and make individuals more susceptible to suggestion. This technique exploits cognitive overload and emotional arousal, often bypassing Godly Conduct.

God says: you have all the time in Infinity to seek. 

Limiting time in conversation with difficult, manipulative people.

Not responding to vague messages from people you do not know. And also, not sending vague messages to others, unless the context allows it. (Mystics sometimes talk in ways unexpected)

Trusting your instincts in the case of persons whose outer performance hides their inner shadow-operation.

Picking your battles and avoiding battles you can never win. Forces of entropy are strong. The key here is picking your battles, and of course never neglecting fighting for a Good Cause. But what many people don't know is that 'fighting evil' often strengthens it. Just like a flowing poison river keeping the ground beneath it rotten being revitalized once the poison has vaporized away — similar is the case with 'evil' that is not strengthened — it will dry up. Alas! Vaporized poison. How lovely is Life!

Being unresponsive amidst provocation and reaction-fishing.

Going a different route where you see a person who gives you chills.

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Wisdom-based living

When I was forced to think these things through, I got labelled as:

‘The dangerous one’

‘The one who does not let others close’ (best regards people who want to get too close too soon) 

‘Paranoid’

‘Lunatic’

‘Selfish’

‘Hermit’

‘Killer’

‘The intimacy-issued one’

But it’s what I needed to do as an act of Divine Honoring and Self-protection.

Our mammalian brains are wired to obey authorities, and to a certain extent hierarchy is necessary. It’s just like pet training — if the pet is hungry and gets spoiled it will eat the birthday cake on the table. I wonder what's gonna be served at the table then.

But just because our ancient, instinctual inheritance is intact doesn’t mean we are at the Savanna. The idea is that when we have permission from the leader, we feel safe to act. But the leader is within you and it says: you have permission now. Even I say it now: you have a permission. But remember! Certain rules seem to apply in this phenomenal experience —being 'too free' can sometimes trigger others, especially in spiritual/religious circles. How nice would it indeed be to show it without getting into trouble.

My intent is to protect — we live in a symbolic matrix. Freedom is an inner way of being. 

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No Need to Seek Permission

Why would a co-creator need permission from another co-creator, who is likely themselves figuring many things out too? There are things no one should ever do, but the things your soul whispers — you should do, and you should know also that if your soul whispers something, you’ve already been given permission to act on it. But don’t go crazy, no one's soul whispers things not orchestrated by the Source of It. One has to be really discerning with this. When we hear our Higher Self speaking, it is ethereal, subtle and intuitive. I’m not referring to the archetypal: ‘Steve took LSD and thought they were an orange and peeled off their skin’. I’m referring to the: ‘I need to write a book’ and acting on it. I’m referring to the ‘I actually feel like I’m attracted to path X instead of path Y’ and going with the X.  And of course, don’t do crimes as opposed to the will of the Kingdom, but remember this: man's laws don’t always represent these. My intent is not to claim that there aren’t ways. There certainly are. But true laws are for everybody — it will still take some time to make worldly laws match the true Law many mystics already know about.

Note: Let X and Y stand for whatever resonates with you. If X symbolizes Christ for you, please know this is not meant to exclude anyone or their chosen path. X-love embraces all and everybody. The Y-path is a nuanced and often difficult one.

Conclusion

I want to ask you 8 questions:

How would you want to live your Infinite Life?

If you knew that some connections are risky to the soul, and can result in costly soul ties and that you will exist forever as a soul, what type of deals would you like to sign?

If you knew how moldable identity is and that you have a Divine identity in Christ (Immanent Cosmic Intelligence) would you still want to spend time with people who groom you to be a version of yourself that, sometimes, only benefits them and reduces you to ashes? 

How would you like to engage with Life as a co-creator, knowing that even the subtlest impulse or mistake can define your whole future?

A person's outer façade may hide their subtle shadow-operation. How close would you like to let them? You give them love while they plot your downfall. From a perspective of a fairly spiritual person, that is just stupid. I never thought I'd repeat the words I've so often heard: 'Don't be stupid'.

To whom would you like to open your energetic space to?

The ‘devil’ is involved in every Divine Story as a strategic cunner that often comes stirring the still lake of one's heart at the heights of Wisdom. How much do you want to have lasting peace?

Who do you want to spend your time with? 

If approaching these questions stir doubting parts in you to the surface, wonder if you could approach this process more gently. How could you give yourself permission to thrive, to be Sovereign? It is possible. How could you be in a position where thinking confidently would feel as your birthright? It is true. The Joyful Creator who made you in Its image made you for freedom. Soul-purpose negating behaviours simply do not come directly from the Divine Source, they are tests sent to make you resilient in Sovereignty.  

You have the right to limit who and what has access to you without being arrogant. If people dislike you, remember that what you are doing is the process of Divine Honoring — Life applauds you for it — and Life praises itself through the obedient eventually.

I’ve sometimes had banana flies in my home, and I have had to hide all sweet things from the open. As banana flies live a short life and fly toward temporary sweetness, so is the course of the distracted person who clings to the familiar, but painful — only to find they’ve landed in a poisoned well with bitter stew at the bottom. But with patience, a person don’t have to suffer that consequence. This doesn’t mean cutting off from everything. It means becoming more careful with what you offer your precious gems to, in other words, who and what gets the front row seat in your life. Note to reader: my intent is very positive and it is to support your divinely chosen path.

The Real Deal still exists, never has it not. Keep remembering who you are. Moments of testing are in fact best type of practice for this, since if you learn to hold on to it while in the vortex of wordliness, it can't leave you in a peaceful room.

P.S—the content-communion within this text is intended non-personally. I'm very poetic—that to me is the highest art and act of worship. If something lands you, you'll feel it—take it as a gift for you. I always aim to see the bigger, cosmic picture behind everything which has resulted in me often seeing it. I'm not obligated to explain myself, but sometimes what flows in the flow has stirred many types of feelings in different persons. My reaction, personally, is usually awe and then I say: how can I have more of this?

Isn't it nice to find out what all this means (to you)?

Much Love,

In Divine Stability

L.Z – Līlā Zenith